199 Days: The Story of Jack RSS

Telling Chris he was going to be a dad was one of the best days of my life. We went back into the fertility clinic a week later and had our first ultrasound. We heard our baby's heartbeat for the first time. It was that day that I started to live and breathe being pregnant. I wanted to know everything there was to know about it. I downloaded 2 or 3 pregnancy apps that counted the days along the way. I couldn't wait to see what my baby would look like as each week passed. We called the baby "poppy"...

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My husband, Chris, and I were married in October of 2006. We were 23 and just out of college, ready to start our life together. We always knew we wanted to have kids but wanted to enjoy the time just the two of us first. We bought a small house in a quiet neighborhood. After 3 years of marriage, I started to get the baby itch. I wanted to be a mother more than anything. I had been a nanny for a few years and was currently a preschool teacher. The joy that I saw children brought into their parent’s...

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We arrived home at 11 o'clock at night. The house felt stale. It had that same smell from when we first bought it, a scent of absence. Walking into our house after being gone for six months was a little eerie. It was as if the world had stopped. Like life had just been lifted out and never returned. It was January 12th, 2012. I walked past his room without looking in. To me, it wasn't really his room; he had never even slept there. As I undressed to take a shower, I put my dirty clothes in the hamper....

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